As I listened to a worship song from Shane & Shane I let the words of worship saturate my mind.

The fear of aches being bone cancer like my daddy had....lie from the devil!

......it’s not easy to praise God when heartbreak hardens your heart; it’s not easy to praise God when rent is coming up and you don’t know if it will get paid, or you will become evicted; it’s not easy when the weather reminds you of your afflictions, it’s not easy, BUT the devil is after our mind and our worship.

Sing anyway.
“I can’t sing! I’m hurting!”
Sing in your heart.
“I just want to cry!”
Let the tears flow down your face.

When OUR enemy reminds us of our sufferings, our afflictions, our disfigurements to overpower us, GOD reminds us of what He saved us from to EMPOWER us!

Today as I was in the grocery store with my children, I started experience such a pain on my ankles to where it hurt to walk, but I kept walking.

“It was just cold in there, that’s what it is.”

No, we’re reminded of our afflictions for God to get our attention, will we listen or continue to search for a “solution” for our hardships?

I was reminded today of my afflictions that could have been a result of my pain today:
brain injury, broken collar bone, crack and shattered knee, 12 broken ribs, broken pinky.....BUT He also reminded me, when all I have is tears to offer Him, that is my worship to Him (and eventually singing the words of worship)....we will all go through difficulties, but who we run to will determine the outcome we have.

Daniel 3:27 NIV - and the satraps, prefects, governors and royal advisers crowded around them. They saw that the fire had not harmed their bodies, nor was a hair of their head singed; their robes were not scorched, and there was no smell of fire on them.

Thank you for the lifted prayers, GOD BLESS!

Gratitude....shame.
Good spirits.....sorrow.
Gentle......strong.

As my day got close to an end yesterday, my spirit become emotionally saddened.

I wanted to cry, but for what?
A couple days ago I had woken up, thinking, “It’s going on two and a half months with no running water, not sure when or how I will get it fixed but I know God is using this as a teaching moment.”

My boss had called me into her office; she assured me I was not in trouble, in the end she told me her church had a program that helped with repairs in a home, and she mentioned me, and they said they would help me.
My heart leaped with joy as I saw Gods hand at work; my eyes started to fill up with tears as I walked out of her office.

I’ve cried out, “God I’m tired! I’m tired!”, but still kept praising Him for His goodness.

“Mom, when will we get the water fixed? I’m tired of carrying luggage back and forth, I am ready to stay home, I’m ready to cook a home cooked meal!”

“Im tired. I’m tired. I’m tired” is all I could think as I kept seeking Jesus.

God listens. God delivers.

It’s been rough to pay a water bill each month to have the account open, when water has not been available.

It’s been tough to load the empty jugs, fill up jugs with water and then carry them into the house to flush toilets and wash hands.

It’s been rough to carry luggage and laundry from one place to another; BUT GOD, is still good.

It’s easy to want to give up thanking God, when afflictions and adversities come, but keep pressing ahead, your breakthrough will come.

A special thank you for the prayers that have come through; I hope to now be able to spend more time at home when my plumbing issues are fixed, and work on those fundraisers to help market and advertise, not my book, nor my name, but the Name above all other names, Jesus!!

God loves you & I love you too!

Isaiah 43:19 NIV - See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness

Happy Mother’s Day....but what if your not a mother? What if a child has resented you & does not speak to you? What if your mom has passed away or you never had a mom to celebrate? What if a child has passed away and your reminded of the calls you would receive on special occasions such as this? Is it still a “Happy Day”?

As I woke up, giving God my worship, my gratitude for allowing me to be a mother, I didn’t feel so well. I hadn’t felt well since yesterday evening.

I got up and headed to the kitchen as my daughter slept. Seeing the counters cluttered with mail that had been laid from days of just coming home after work and laying it in one spot.

With the music coming through my headphones I tried to keep the noise at a minimum to not wake her.

I proceeded to get a pot to make her sweet tea, get the wienes and eggs out to fry them, and the toast....”it’s Mother’s Day she should be doing that for you!”

See, it’s not the “day” that’s on the calendar that we should have admiration and recognition from those who love and appreciate us; this was my honor to show my baby that I am grated for her! For the times (a lot of times lol) she cooks and cleans for me, all while going to college herself; when I come home from work, and when I sit in my office writing...she does that. Is it “Mother’s Day” then? No.

Adoration, favor, respect and reverence can be and should be shown to God firsthand, for allowing us to be a mother, father, son, daughter, grandchild, and then shown to one another.

God loves you & I love you too!

Colossians 3:12 NIV - Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
GOD BLESS!